Monday, December 04, 2006

I accept my cup

I wrote these words several years ago in the margin of Linda Dillow's book "Calm My Anxious Heart". In fact I have re-read the book a few times and came to the same conclusion. "I like control!" As a result I memorized two scriptures, the first is 1 Timothy 6:15, (which Linda Dillow quotes in her book as two of the scriptures she memorized)
God....is the blessed controller of all things, the king over all kings and the master of all masters.

I continually want to place myself on the throne. I want to plan, prepare, and know what is expected and what should be done in all situations at all times. I even want answers for why certain things have occurred in my life and why other things haven't. Hasn't this been the battle from the beginning? I want to be like God. All this effort and I still come up short. I am still frustrated at my own efforts and than of all things I begin to blame God for why things are such a mess in my own heart.

I must continually go back to the scripture "He is the blessed controller of all things" and according to Psalm 16:5,
Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure.

Linda Dillow in her book says this, "Every cup-whether dainty china or rouch-hewn pottery- has a handle. God has placed our portion in our cup. We either choose to grasp it by the handle and lift it to Him, saying, "I accept my portion; I accept this cup," or we choose to smash our cup to pieces, saying, "God, I refuse my portion. This cup is not the right size for me and I don't like what You've put in it. I'll control my life myself."

I accept my cup. We all have that cup that we are drawn to. It is usually not the most attractive cup, or the most expensive. Most of the time it is a bit worn, but it is faithful. It brings a sense of warmth when we hold it. God I want to be a cup, not as the world sees, but one that brings glory to You and accepts the portion You give.

6 comments:

Kelly said...

Thank you for these words of challenge. I, too, like to control. I like plans and lists. God has challenged me to trust him one step at a time. He often gives us a flashlight to light the next step, not a spotlight to see down the road. So hard for me sometimes.

Julie Fink said...

These words have the makings of being a devotional talk for ladies in your church!

Carol said...

Great analogy. As I read this, I couldn't help remembering that even as Christ asked the Father to take the cup from Him he said, "Yet not what I will, but what You will."

I guess if we don't like our cup, we can ask...

Thanks for visiting She Lives and for your encouraging comment.

Peanut Butter and Jelly Boats said...

So encouraging! Thanks for sharing. I just finished reading "Out of Control and Loving IT" by Lisa Bevere. Similar Content. You might like it, it changed my life!

Katherine @ Raising Five said...

I love Linda Dillow. That is an awesome book. I need to be reminded of this daily!

A Place For Ministry Wives said...

I was just checking out your blog and saw this post. I have never even heard of this book. How ironic that you wrote about this and that it is my blog theme. The Lord laid the "cup" scripture on my heart years ago and I ALWAYS go back to it. It is so fitting for my life. How wonderful that God's Word (well, in this case, David's) is universal and made for all of us.