Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Just some thoughts...

This morning I woke up early. Earlier than I would have liked. I couldn't sleep any longer. Yesterday was my mom's birthday and I wasn't able to get a hold of her. My parents are in route right now on their way to be with my brother whose wife is expecting their first child any day now. I am not sure if her cell phone was out of range or she just didn't hear it in her purse, but we left several messages including some singing for her enjoyment! I spoke with her on Thanksgiving and I told her I would be calling on Monday. I am not worried, just a wee bit sad that we didn't connect.

We had a lovely Thanksgiving Day with a family from our church, but no matter how difficult or even dysfunctional a family can be, nothing can replace family. The realization that our family may never or rarely be able to join together for a Thanksgiving Dinner or any family dinner for that matter, hit me hard this year. My family (parents and three brothers) which used to all live within the same city (or county) just a few years back is now all over the world. Literally! My husband's family is all in the same state, but not the same as us. I know it is just as hard for them as it is for us. We knew as God directed our steps that it included living many miles away from our extended family. My husband and I have prayed about this and accepted God's portion and plan for our lives, but I still miss my mom's cooking. And I don't think that will ever change. The meal was simple and very traditional, her table was simply decorated with her favorite tablecloth, we used the everyday dishes, but the smells, their laughter , and the joy of being with one another was how we spent the holiday. This wasn't the first year we have been apart, it has been many by now, but somehow this year was just harder.



I often think about the saying, "bloom where you are planted!" That is my prayer. God has planted me where I am. It may not look like others. I am often told, "I could never live away from my family ." Well guess what, "neither can I!" I don't do it because I want to or because I am cold hearted and don't care, I do it because I believe with all my heart that this is where God has planted me. And I am choosing to bloom! I know the bud is small, but be patient I need watering, fertilizer, and some sonshine. And someday I hope to be a beautiful rose that reflects the Glory of God.

Just some thoughts...

7 comments:

Diana said...

Thanks, Chris, for the sacrifices you've made to be here and minister to this church family. I pray God bless you richly.

Susanne said...

Chris, what a beautiful post on laying down your own life and pleasures to do the will of God for your life. Bless you as you obey Him!

You are an inspiration!

Heth said...

You are a beautiful bloom! Thank you so much for being obedient to God's call. You have no idea how many people's lives you blessing. Mine for one!

Linda said...

As far as I am concerned you are already a beautiful rose and you most definitely reflect the glory of God. There is a verse in scripture that speaks of the blessing the Lord has for those who give up family in service for Him. I pray He blesses you and your family abundantly as you live your lives centered in His will.
You are a blessing Chris.

momzie said...

What do you mean "someday"? Sweet friend, you are a beautiful rose already! You're like an ever-blooming bush that radiates for Jesus!
Thank you for being where you are. I'm sorry it was a hard Thanksgiving. I agree with my sister here for blessings on you and your entire family.

T said...

you are a blessing. I know it's hard to be away from family... just think of all the bad parts about them...that helps! :) hehe

Tammy said...

I can imagine it is hard sometimes to be away from family- especially during the holidays. You are only human! I know God will bless you richly and renew you joy beecause of your faithfulness...

Chris, I wanted to say it just warmed my heart to read that you had heard the late Ron Mehl speak at your church in CA several times, and that you also had books he has written!
(((HUGS)))